Sunday Reflections Thirty One

Suuuuunday!

The day of rest!

Except the Hubs and I are not resting. BUT, we had our “day of rest” yesterday.

We took the day off work and went to Point Defiance Zoo. Which is this massive zoo/aquarium hybrid where I live. Then we went out for some SUPER creative Argentinian food at this fancy restaurant. It was SO yummy! It’s always fun to try new ethnic foods. At least we think so J

Before this reflection, random question: have you heard the worship song “This I Believe (The Creed)?” It just came on the Pandora station I am listening to as I type this and it is currently my FAVORITE song ever.

You must listen to it.

Alrighty. Reflection time!

This one is a 6 week update on the whole “I’ve gained weight, now I gotta actually maintain it for once in my life” journey that I’ve been on.

AND, I am SO HAPPY to report, that 6 weeks later and I have MAINTAINED. WOOO.

If you’ve followed the other Sunday reflections, you know that I typically just lose all the weight once I feel like I am done my “plan.”

Now, as I told you in the last update, I knew that I couldn’t just completely go off a planned diet right away, as this is what has not worked in the past. So the last 6 weeks have still been pretty calculated, but with throwing a few little “scary things” (like going out for dinners and actually ordering what I want) in there and just trying to figure out a good calorie range that I should be shooting for to maintain.

So now, I need to figure out the next step. I’m doing this “learning to eat like a normal human when I’m hungry and stop when I am full” thing in baby steps. Again, so that it actually works.

I don’t know 100% what the next step is, but I do know that it involves actually cooking a lot more dinners for the hubs and I, instead of sticking to making my own, simple, VRY SAFE food…and making him cook his own thing. I told you I was trying to do more of that a while ago…and I kinda fell off the bandwagon. Whoops.

BUT, it’s happened 3 times this week! Which is a win.

So, that’s your update. I know it wasn’t super spiritual today. But, really, you and I both know that I need Jesus’ help, strength and power to get through all this new learning. Because, honestly, I am still at that place where, if I ate when I was hungry, I would almost never eat.

My body does this when I go off plan. I think it’s residual eating disorder thoughts. They’re hard to fight.

Which is why Jesus. Trying to focus on the life HE wants for me and that I am loved, is one of the only things that I can do to get through those moments of fear.

I hope ya’ll have a great rest of your Sunday!

P.s the verse in today’s image has REALLY been resonating with me this week. It’s comforting to know that Paul was in the same boat as all of us – giving in to his sinful nature even though he wanted to do the very opposite. DEFINITELY not an excuse, as it just shows we really need to lean on God to fight this sin nature.