I finally did it guys. If you have read my “about me” you will know that for years now I have struggled with allowing myself to sometimes eat not so healthy. I have been on extremely strict diet plans, that involved obsessively weighing out food on scales, and eating the same thing every single day. It involved working out at 4 am, and NEVER EVER missing a workout, even if I was sick. Mr.Foodfaithfitness and I went to Portland over the weekend…and it was so nice to not be on “a plan!” I even ate donuts, grilled cheese sandwiches, a couple adult beverages and chocolate peanut butter waffles all on one day…and didn’t get obese over night, like I always fear I would. So, I decided it’s time to stop trying to control my body and life by my food plan, and to take a step out in faith and give it to God. I haven’t been living the full, abundant life that He wants for me because of my food issues, and it is time to give it to him. I no longer want having a “perfect body” to be my idol, as I want the center point of my life to be the Lord. I want to be able to enjoy food and social gatherings with the hubs, and for them not to be a fearful event. So, I have gone off my plan. I have done it before, gotten scared, and gone back on…but, not this time. This time I won’t do that. I am going to learn to eat mindfully and intuitively. Don’t get me wrong, I am still going to be super duper health conscious, and exercise very regularly…but, I am going to work on allowing some room for cheesecake :). It will be really scary for me, but I am going to learn to not rely on myself, as I can’t do it on my own. I can only do it with the Lord’s help. Anyway, like I’ve said before, I want this blog to be real. I want you guys to know my struggles with food and be there as I try to learn how to walk in faith. I think it is so easy to feel like you’re alone in your struggles, so I want to help anyone know that they aren’t as alone as they feel! I know these posts aren’t as fun as recipes, but sometimes I gotta get a little serious over here at FFF y’all.
Colleen says
I am so proud to be your mom!! You have so much courage to put this out there for anyone to read. I have always said you have more strength than you know, and with God beside you, you can’t lose. You also have so many people loving and praying you through this. Way to go!! Love ya tons!!
Emily says
Taylor!
So impressed by your honesty and realness on this webpage! Crazy to think your the same (and yet very different) person I knew in grade 7.
Excited, and slightly hesitant, to try out some of your recipes as I attempt to live a healthier life. Nervous about all this avocado talk, but I’m willing to give it a shot. =]
Hope all is well and keep up the great work! It’s a d-light to read your posts!
Emily
Tate says
Holy buckets! Emily! Crazy! Thank you so much, I appreciate the kind words! Don’t be afraid, you’ll like them! Let me know if you try anything 🙂
kellie says
Kudos to you for putting it in God’s hands. I have the opposite problem and need to get healthy, eat healthy and start exercising! With God all things are possible. 🙂
Tate says
Thank you! It is so hard to give it to Him on both ends of the spectrum. If I can do it, so can you girl! 🙂
Tessa says
Tate,
Thank you so much for sharing this. I honestly struggle with the very things you did. Counting calories, obsessive about exercise, my weight and problem areas. I have really been praying for The Lord to help me let go of these “security blankets” but it is honestly a real struggle for me. I try to keep telling myself “ain’t nobody got time for that!” and focus on things that really matter, like the lost souls of this world. You’re an encouragement!
Your sister in Christ,
Tessa
Tate says
Thank you so much Tessa! It’s so hard to let go and I still struggle! Seriously if you ever need encouragement or wanna talk, email me! Maybe we can help eachother out 🙂 xoxo
jamie lee says
Hi! I’ve been wondering how you’re doing on this? It is my BIGGEST struggle. Consumes my mind and makes me absolutely crazy. I’ve been praying about it a lot and searching for help out there besides some nutritional psychiatrist who will tell me that “No, missing a workout or having a dessert will not make you need a new wardrobe the next day.” And while reading this I thought “Oooh, maybe I can start getting up even earlier to workout.” (I’m already at work by 6 in the morning.) Anyway, with all that said, my prayers and thoughts keep wondering back to you and was hoping you have some advice/support/anything helpful for other people who struggle with this as well. Thanks!
jamie lee says
Well, I guess I just read your January 2nd post. And it seems like you’re doing well! Are there any truths you repeat to yourself or any tips you have for a day when you’re completely struggling?
Tate says
I’m doing better, but I am definitely not in any way 100% healed. It’s a slow process, but it’s getting easier to “let go and let God” everyday! Actually, what has really helped me has been writing out some of my favorite scripture verses or verses about body image or trusting God on post it notes, and then sticking them on my bathroom mirror! Since the mirror is my worst enemy, it helps to have those verses RIGHT THERE ya know? I also see them every single day, multiple times…so it’s a constant reminder of scripture. I have no idea if that helped or not, but it helped me! Feel free to email me with ANYTHING else! Or for some good scripture ideas or ANYTHING! 🙂 [email protected]
jamie lee says
This is a great idea! I have a lot of prayers and contentment quotes shoved around my mirror already. Might as well add to it with how we’re created in the image of God. Thank you so much taking the time to reach out to a complete stranger and be so honest. You are a blessing to so many!
Tate says
Of course! It’s the main reason I started this whole blog thang! Thank you SO much, you just made my day! xoxo
Tate says
Agree x100 on the nutritional psychiatrist! YOU ARE AT WORK BY 6?! DO NOT GET UP EARLIER TO WORKOUT. Sleep is important. I answered your question a little on the other post comment but, again, please please please don’t hesitate to email me. Maybe we can help eachother out as support! 🙂
Loleta says
Very courageous to share your struggle openly. In the most difficult times in my life the turning point was always when I finally realize that anything is possible but only with His help. Not that the problems go away, but I learned to deal with them in a different manner, knowing that He will bring good out of anything. Maybe how you deal with your problems will help people overcome theirs! Maybe your honesty in admitting you had misplaced your center will challenge others to give a thought as to what is in the center of their lives! Congratulations for your blog, your progress and know that I will pray for you: that you eat cheesecake regularly with a big smile!! Greetings from Spain!
Taylor Kiser says
You are so so right Loleta! And thank you for the sweet words, you just made my day! Especially with the Cheesecake comment!! 🙂