Food Faith Fitness has been an entirely gluten free blog for 6 years, and it’s time to shake things up a little bit!
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Yesterday was probably our most memorable night so far ? we really got immersed in the local culture when we did an AirBnB experience and were taken to local tapas spots and a local flamenco bar where no tourists went! ? it felt special and cultural and a night I’ll never forget! Plus we got to try so many foods we never would have ordered and it was amazing for me to be able to eat what was given to me, without having fear that I had not controlled what we ordered. ❤️ dang, Europe. Your energy and life is magic. #foodfaithfit ?
This post has been a long time coming and I figured its finally time to write it.
If you follow me on Instagram, you’ll know that I’ve gone through a lot of changes with food lately. If you’ve been around the blog awhile, I’ve been pretty open and honest that I had overcome an eating disorder, but still really struggled with the obsession with healthy food, calorie counting and over exercising.
Until 6 months ago.
I finally decided enough was enough and I quit the gym, and started eating more in order to gain weight but, really, to gain my health as I was at a low and unhealthy weight where my body wasn’t functioning properly. I had lost my period for MANY years, and that’s a huge sign something is wrong.
It’s been the best (and hardest and scariest) decision I’ve ever done. Sure, I’ve gained weight. But I’ve gained my life. I’ve healed my relationship with food and my body and exercise. I’m still not lifting weights right now and haven’t in 6 months. I’m just doing gentle walking and yoga. I am excited to return to weights, but I want to make sure my body is truly happy before doing so and that I’m cycling regularly (I’m cycling now, just not regularly yet.)
I’m going to do a much larger post on this topic, Intuitive Eating and hypothalamic amenorrhea (the term for losing your period) BUT, what I want to write about today is my perspective shift on gluten specifically.
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What do you do to get “back on track?” Personally, after a weekend of eating different things I used to always feel the need to restrict my food intake and up my exercise. It was miserable and exhausting but I felt like I didn’t have a choice because I had to “make up” for all the things I ate ?but you know what? This is just so not true. I just spent the past 2 weeks in Europe and I can count the amount of veggies I ate on one hand and the glasses of wine on like 30 hands ? and nothing bad happened! I haven’t weighed myself but I look the same and all my clothes feel the same and I fully enjoyed my vacation and was present and ate tons of treats that I don’t usually eat! ?? now my body IS craving veggies so I will probably be eating a bunch, but not because I feel like I have to get on track, because I don’t think I ever fell off! Food freedom is a beautiful thing friends. ❤️Remember to live your life and enjoy all foods because veggie aren’t going anywhere and you can return to them at any time! ❤️ I once read “don’t give up 95% of your life just to weigh 5% less” and it’s so true! This was my snack plate yesterday and it hit the spot ?? marinated asparagus, strawberries and avocado egg toast with jammy @vitalfarms eggs, truffle salt and flax bread! Happy Tuesday! . What’s one of your go to snacks? #foodfaithfit ?
To be totally honest, I’ve never been one to not eat gluten. I never ate a lot of it as I do naturally crave foods that don’t have it, but it’s never been off limits – I have always eaten whole wheat bread, for example. But, gluten KIND OF bothers Mr. FFF’s stomach (nowhere near as much as dairy though) and since gluten free is popular right now, I just kind of thought “ok, I’ll be a gluten free food blog.” FFF is my job and it was (and still is) important to make things that I think will be “popular” and get visits to my website.
BUT, what is now more important to me is practicing what I (and many people) call “food freedom.” And to me, that means enjoying ALL foods, regardless of their dietary specifics. That means I typically still eat whole and “real” (I don’t love that term) food, but there is always room for treats and listening to what my body is craving.
All that being said, I am no longer going to ONLY do gluten free recipes, or ALL special diet recipes. Yes, everything will still be what I consider “healthy” (in air quotes because food is just food, not healthy or unhealthy) and MANY will still be gluten free because that is mostly naturally the food I crave, and the recipes I make for you are now what I am actually eating in my day-to-day life. Yes, there will still be a TON of dairy free recipes since Mr. FFF can’t have it, but not all recipes will be. Yes, I’ll still do some special diet recipes. There won’t be a TON of change. But there will be some just be “everyday healthy” recipes that focus on better-for-you choices but not following a super specific diet, and they might have a gluten-containing ingredient. I might make almond flour muffins. But, I also might make whole wheat muffins. I’ll try to have subs for people who truly can’t have gluten, but I can’t promise that will always be the case.
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The girl in this photo looks happy on the outside. But truth is, she wasn’t. This photo was taken about 4 years ago, and I was in the depth of my food restriction and exercise addiction. Food consumed my mind. What I would eat, when, how many calories. Always making sure to wait 5 hours after getting up to eat because I wanted to shut off my hunger for the day. How many workouts I would do that week and HEAVEN forbid I miss ONE workout. Then I would probably gain 100 lbs overnight! Fast forward to me right now. Lying on my couch on Sunday morning, been awake for 45 Minutes and already eaten breakfast. Probably will go back for second breakfast. Not sure what or when or how many calories I’ll eat today because I’ll eat when I’m hungry. And honestly probably when I’m not hungry too because I’m currently fighting for total food freedom and to get my period back (which I’ve lost due to over exercise and too little food). I shared in my stories yesterday that I’m currently eating 2300-3000 Calories a day. Sometimes more! Trying to stop counting completely but that’s where I end up if I count at the end of the day And guess what? That’s without exercise. I haven’t lifted a weight in 2 MONTHS. I haven’t even done exercise for 3 weeks now. I was doing yoga. But quit because I found I was doing it to earn food (which you don’t have to do. Ever). This girl is walking 2 MPH 30 mins-1 HR a day and EATING. Resting. Recovering. Taking back my joy and health and happiness and can I just tell you I am so much happier now! Heavier, yes. But not by tons and I’m going on 4 months of this new lifestyle. Has it been hard? Yes! I have felt like I’m losing my identity of the fitness obsessed girl. And seeing a new body has been challenging. But so so so worth it. If you worry about missing one workout or every food you eat you miss life. And can I tell you from my now personal experience gaining weight is actually hard! It doesn’t happen in one day. You have so much more to give the world than your perfect abs. Don’t let those things outshine who you really are on the inside ❤️ tagging some body positive ladies to follow in the photo for you to follow! #foodfaithfit ?
I want FFF to represent my authentic self, which I don’t think it TRULY has in the past. I also want it to be a place that doesn’t contribute to the overwhelming message that we have to follow a certain diet to be “good.” I want you to know that you can eat what you want, what makes you feel good and what satisfies you!
I understand many of you might stop reading the blog because you ONLY want gluten free recipes and that’s okay. You have to do YOU. But, I have to do me and that means slightly switching the perspective of Food Faith Fitness.
Would love to hear your thoughts in the comments!