Sunday Reflections Twenty Seven

Hi guys!

Guess what, I’m actually in Nappa Valley at a fun event all about PEANUTS!

AAAAND I’m here with one of my blogging BFF’s who I’ve actually never met in real life, until TODAY. So much fun and excitement!

AND, I have MORE exciting news on this glorious, peanut-inclusive Sunday:

In the words of the wise woman, Dora the explorer, “I did it, I did it, I did it, HOORAY!”

Remember last time I told you that I had 1 lb to go. WELL I GAINED IT. I officially gained my 11 lbs and hit my goal, HEALTHY weight.

It’s the heaviest I’ve been (and it’s not actually heavy AT ALL, which I am trying to remember to tell myself!) in 3 years. Like, as long as I’ve been married. Needless to say, I’m super proud of me. Is that okay to say? I hope so.

But, I still have MENTAL work to do.

Caleb and I were sitting down and talking about the next steps (I’ll fill you in on them in just a sec) and the first thing I asked him was “maybe I should just keep gaining weight you know? Like, I really want to be really fit and muscular like those people in magazines and I won’t gain muscle if we try to figure out what my maintenance calories are” (in order to gain muscle, you gotta eat OVER what your body needs.)

And he immediately said “No. You are NOT the right person for that. Then you’re going to want to do a “cut” afterwards” (cutting is what bodybuilders do to lose the excess fat they gain after “bulking” since it’s impossible to gain muscle and not gain some fat)

I was like “BUT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO DO IT NOT OBSESSIVELY. I CAN LEARN HOW TO BE THAT PERSON”

He was like “No. you are not that person. You will never be that person. It’s time that you learn how to be happy at THIS HEALTHY weight”

And he’s right. Obviously I still have some mental things to work out. Like being happy with the body God gave me and just trying to keep it a healthy temple for Him, without getting all cray cray.

Isn’t it funny how you reach a goal and it’s never good enough?

So next steps. I’ve done this before: gained weight and immediately stopped my calorie-counting, scale-using diet. Aaaand, I lost weight. Every time.

So, we’re taking it in baby steps. I’m going to start for a few weeks of still using the scale, eating the same calories and adding a LITTLE bit of cardio. I haven’t done cardio in 3 years, to be honest. So we’re going to increase the exercise a little, keep the food the same and see if I can try to figure out a good rough estimate of how much I should eat to maintain this healthy weight.

Every couple of weeks we will alter the plan to slowly wean me off scale/calorie counting.

My mental plan is to really try to focus on keeping exercise as a way to keep God’s temple HEALTHY and not having to be some elite fitness, ripped muscle-y person. And, now that I’ve achieved the weight gain, to stop focusing on the food SO MUCH and to try focus on actually living the life that God has in store for me.

Little by little changing the focus. Baby steps.

Anyway. I must go learn about peanuts! Sorry this got long, but I knew you’d want to know J

Happy Sunday!

P.s sorry the image is the same as last week. TIME. I did not have it.