Well it’s 2016. Already. HOW HOW HOW?
I just don’t get where 2015 went. But, it’s GONE.
Now that it’s January, you know it’s time for New Year’s Resolutions right? So, today’s reflections are about mine.
If you’ve been around here 2 seconds you would know that these Sunday Reflections have been chronicling my journey to try to gain weight and become free of the mental food battle that I deal with. Did I 100% succeed over 2015? Nope.
But, did I make some major improvements? HECK YES.
I’ve gained ALMOST the amount of weight that I need to be considered healthy…I’m hoping that I’ll be done my stupid diet plan in the next month or so. WOO HOO. I’m so done with weighing out all my food and eating to the point of being uncomfortably full, and I’m excited (but scared) to be onto trying to learn how to eat normally.
BUT, until then, I’ve decided that my short-term New Year’s resolution is to start eating “different food.”
You’re probably like “what?” Ummmm, honest moment…I’ve eaten oatmeal for DINNER for the last year. Every. Single Day. Well maybe except for the odd few times where we had a date night.
But, Mr. FFF? He does not eat oatmeal for dinner. Which, if you’re putting together the pieces, means that we have not sat down to the same meal for dinner in a year. WORST WIFE EVERY AWARD.
You’re probably wondering “what about all the food you cook?” I try just enough of it to know what needs to be adjusted, if anything, and then make the hubs eat the leftovers for his dinner. This is because the food I PERSONALLY create, scares me.
LAME LAME LAME. Especially because I really LIKE everything I make and WANT to eat it. Really badly.
However, it scares me that I don’t know the exact nutritional information of it, and it’s too hard to figure it out since there are usually lots of things mixed together (the nutrition label you see on recipes isn’t calculated till a lot later after a recipe is developed.) So, I eat oatmeal because it’s 2 things: oatmeal and fruit. Easy to calculate calories. Easy to make sure I don’t eat too much.
It’s pathetic. I want to sit down and make dinner for my husband. Or at least eat my own leftovers with him.
SO, starting…umm…yesterday…I challenged myself to not eat oatmeal for diner. Like, yesterday I had RICE. With OTHER STUFF all MIXED IN. It was scary. But it was also freeing.
Side note: I’m embarrassed just reading the things I’m writing right now. How lame is it that I’m writing about my triumphant rice eating? Just being real though.
Anyway. This is my short term resolution. To start eating what a normal human would eat for dinner so that, one day soon, I can have normal dinners with the most amazing man ever that I happen to be married to.
I realize today’s reflection isn’t really “Christian-y,” but this goal is part of my master plan to kick my eating crap to the curb and embrace the full, non-oatmeal-for-dinner life that God has in mind for me.
Side note: THIS DEVOTIONAL was a really great, quick read this week! You might like it too!
So, what’s your New Year’s Resolutions?