Happy beautiful day of rest to you!
I’m actually NOT resting. Well, sorta. I’m at a Nurse Anesthetist (spellcheck DEFINITELY yelled at me for that word) conference with Mr. FFF.
Yep. I decided to quit blogging and go into the wonderful world of putting people to sleep instead.
The huborama is actually in the process of applying to go back to school to become a Nurse Anesthesiologist, and there was a conference here in Seattle this weekend. We figured it might be interesting/fun to go schmooze with all the peeps he will one day be working with. So, I’m here.
BUT, you didn’t come to hear about that. You can because it’s Sunday Reflection tiiiiiime!
This reflection is actually a reflection on Sunday reflections.
Are you confused?
Lemme explain. I told you guys I am doing the Proverbs31.org “First Five” App. It’s an app that you open FIRST THING IN THE MORNING BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING, and read it. It’s a 5 minute devotional and it has a little thought-provoking-self-reflecting question at the end. If you’re not doing it, you SHOULD be.
Last week, one of my devotions was on spiritual gifts/unique talents and fulfilling the assignments that God has called you to do. The question was “God has given each of us spiritual gifts, unique talents and a calling to fulfill in the body of Christ. Are you faithfully fulfilling the assignments God has predestined for you? Is anything holding you back from accomplishing the tasks God has laid before you?”
I thought about it for a few moments, and was drawing a blank about what my spiritual gifts were, and what my calling could be.
Then it hit me.
MAYBE, at this stage in my life, my calling is simply to keep nattering about the Lord on this space in the internet land, in hopes that ONE DAY, SOME DAY, someone might read one these little Sunday dealios and want to learn more about this “Christian life” that I talk about. It seems really simple, but MAYBE that is what God is calling me to do at this moment.
Aaaaand. I haven’t been doing it. We haven’t had one in weeks.
So I thought about part 2 of the question: “Is anything holding you back from accomplishing the tasks God has laid before you?”
And the answer to that is work. I literally do not take weekends. I work from 5am-7 or 8 pm EVERY SINGLE NIGHT, and then go to bed and repeat. I am not lying. I am also not trying to make you think I’m some elite hard worker human. I’m actually really tired. But something in me has told me that I need to glorify being busy and earning a living. And, at the end of the day, I just don’t have the energy to write a Sunday post.
Which, is obviously totally wrong thinking. I mean, I do need to make money (especially since hubby is going back to school and I will be the sole provider (EEEEEEK!) for 2-3 years) but it should NOT come before having time to fulfil the duties that God called me too.
So, ya. Convicted.
All of this to say I know that:
- I seriously need to learn the definition of rest.
- I need to make sure that Sunday reflections happens on its regular, every-other-week schedule. Even it’s just short, and some nice verses that I like that week. JUST GET SOMETHING THAT GLORIFIES THE LORD UP.
There’s my brain dump for you for the next 2 weeks. I want to challenge YOU to ask yourself the same question that I did, and see what you come up!
Enjoy your day peeps. I’m off to schmoooooze <3