Hello Sunday peeps!
Today, I am going to write a post that is kind of for you, and kind of for me. Basically, I am writing this to keep myself accountable to my new “get closer to Jesus plan.” That’s what I am calling it at least.
Last Sunday Reflection I told you that I’ve made the (scary!) decision to put on 10 lbs. Partially because I should for health, and partially to try to overcome the terrible/irrational fear I have of weight gain, and to learn to try to rely on the Lord more to give me strength to do things that scare me.
However, I was listening to a Joyce Meyer podcast (do you listen to those? I LOVE) and it really convicted me. It was basically about the different between being a “hearer of the Word” and a “seeker of the Word.”
I started to think of my own life, and where I fall into place….and, unfortunately, that is mostly a “hearer of the Word.” I mean, I do my devotionals every day. But, if I am honest with you, that’s about 5-10 minutes a day and I typically rush through them since I do them first thing in the morning, when my mind if really just on getting to the computer and working. Heck, I even come downstairs, boot up my computer and then do them. Which totally makes it hard to concentrate on what I am reading.
After thinking more, I wondered if MAYBE this is why I have done this “weight gain thing” over and over and over, without success (I typically just “accidentally” lose the weight I gained and have to start from scratch.) They say “if nothing changes, then nothing changes” right?
Well, during all my past weight gain attempts, I have done it the same way. Yep, I force myself to eat enough calories, gain weight and that’s the end of that. Only, to have to do it again in a few months. I’ve never actually changed the MENTAL part of the weight gain battle. So, I am doing that this time.
And, I’m going to God for that mental change. This is my new plan:
- Spend at least 30 minutes on Bible/devotional time each morning…BEFORE going downstairs to my computer. I can do it IN my bedroom.
- Listen to a Joyce Meyer podcast every day, not just on Sunday’s when I don’t actually go to church because Mr. FFF is working (he works every other weekend, so we go to church every other weekend.)
- Spend at least 15 minutes before bed doing a little more devo time. Long ago, I created a scripture journal with verses around body image and fear that I used to read. I will be reading this again, and actually memorizing verses so that I have scripture to say out loud when the devil attacks my mind.
- I also bought a Christian book on body image for woman. I am reading a chapter each day. It’s called “Body Image Lies Women Believe and the Truth of Christ That Sets Them Free.”
So. That’s my plan! I’m excited to start, and I hope that this challenges you to look at your life and make a change from “hearer” to “seeker” if need be!
Have a great day!