Sunday Reflections Thirty Five

Hello Sunday peeps!

Today, I am going to write a post that is kind of for you, and kind of for me. Basically, I am writing this to keep myself accountable to my new “get closer to Jesus plan.” That’s what I am calling it at least.

Last Sunday Reflection I told you that I’ve made the (scary!) decision to put on 10 lbs. Partially because I should for health, and partially to try to overcome the terrible/irrational fear I have of weight gain, and to learn to try to rely on the Lord more to give me strength to do things that scare me.

However, I was listening to a Joyce Meyer podcast (do you listen to those? I LOVE) and it really convicted me. It was basically about the different between being a “hearer of the Word” and a “seeker of the Word.”

I started to think of my own life, and where I fall into place….and, unfortunately, that is mostly a “hearer of the Word.” I mean, I do my devotionals every day. But, if I am honest with you, that’s about 5-10 minutes a day and I typically rush through them since I do them first thing in the morning, when my mind if really just on getting to the computer and working. Heck, I even come downstairs, boot up my computer and then do them. Which totally makes it hard to concentrate on what I am reading.

After thinking more, I wondered if MAYBE this is why I have done this “weight gain thing” over and over and over, without success (I typically just “accidentally” lose the weight I gained and have to start from scratch.) They say “if nothing changes, then nothing changes” right?

Well, during all my past weight gain attempts, I have done it the same way. Yep, I force myself to eat enough calories, gain weight and that’s the end of that. Only, to have to do it again in a few months. I’ve never actually changed the MENTAL part of the weight gain battle. So, I am doing that this time.

And, I’m going to God for that mental change. This is my new plan:

1. Spend at least 30 minutes on Bible/devotional time each morning…BEFORE going downstairs to my computer. I can do it IN my bedroom.
2. Listen to a Joyce Meyer podcast every day, not just on Sunday’s when I don’t actually go to church because Mr. FFF is working (he works every other weekend, so we go to church every other weekend.)
3. Spend at least 15 minutes before bed doing a little more devo time. Long ago, I created a scripture journal with verses around body image and fear that I used to read. I will be reading this again, and actually memorizing verses so that I have scripture to say out loud when the devil attacks my mind.
4. I also bought a Christian book on body image for woman. I am reading a chapter each day. It’s called “Body Image Lies Women Believe and the Truth of Christ That Sets Them Free.”

So. That’s my plan! I’m excited to start, and I hope that this challenges you to look at your life and make a change from “hearer” to “seeker” if need be!

Have a great day!