It’s been awhile since we had a Sunday Reflections! Did you miss me? I sure as heck missed you!
I mean, it’s not like we weren’t together. We ate together, but I like when we go deep and personal. And stuff.
ANYWAY. Let’s just talk about this week’s reflections.
This week I am not really talking about things I learned from a sermon. I mean, I still did my daily listening and learned some things, but what I learned from ONE OF YOU really hit me.
A reader (I don’t know if you want to be named) left a comment on a post just a few days ago with some thoughts on reasons why I haven’t been able to fully give up my food issues.
SIDENOTE: I HAVE to tell you that these past two weeks I did NOT count calories AT ALL. This is the first 2 weeks in over 4 years that I have not done so. I went out for a date with Mr. FFF for the first time and actually got what I WANTED (not whatever was “healthiest” and I made NO changes to the order like no dressing, or whatever) and I got a COCKTAIL. Seriously, this has been the first time in our MARRIAGE that we’ve done it.
It was SO FREEING. I really feel like I am on the road to completely being free, and more so than ever before. But, it has still be hard. Hard to NOT count. To force myself to think about other things when the need strikes.
Back to the comment.
She said that she thinks that maybe the reason I haven’t been able to give up my issues, especially since I see that doing so would give me a brighter, positive life, is because I am not embracing change.
And this, you guys? IS SO TRUE.
This was the comment (reader, I hope you don’t mind me sharing!) “Change can be hard for us humans!! We get into our little routines and our little behaviours and when something’s new it can make us feel unsettled. But that’s only because we tell ourselves change is a bad thing
Recognise that this change is making you feel good. That feeling good is something you deserve, and that it is natural to have these few feelings of confusion about how to get there, but ultimately you can overcome this and have it in you, right now, to do so.
I would also suggest (seeing as you have faith in God) to perhaps ask for help finding your strength to overcome this acceptance of change. To see it as a positive thing. And talk to the mister about it, I am sure his reassurance and love will make you feel better at any time good luck darling!!”
And, it really spoke to me.
I never really thought about how I wasn’t allowing myself to be okay with the change. I always told myself that this was just the way I am, and I am strong because I have such willpower. Changing that would make me weak and less of a person.
But, really, change doesn’t necessarily have to be bad. And, in my case, it’s good. And does NOT make me ANY less of a person. And DEFINITELY not any less loved by God.
I love that she mentioned I have it in ME right now to get over this. Of course, I fully believe that I need to lean on God’s strength and keep praying for help because I can’t do it on my own.
But, ultimately, I have to embrace the change. God isn’t going to do it FOR me, He will just help me along.
Anyway, I guess that wasn’t really what God has been teaching me this week. But, I LOVE that it was one of your amazing people that spoke to me.
Seriously, I love you all!
I would love to know if this helps you, or what change you are not embracing that may be holding YOU back!
Change – it can be a GOOD thing!