Hidey ho hello!
It’s Sunday, and it’s time for another Sunday reflections!
I need to warn you. I am a little bit worried about writing this one. Worried that you guys will think I have been a “fake Christian” or will judge me.
Because, as I sit here figuring out what the heck God has taught me throughout the last 2 WEEKS, that isn’t at all related to food (because I can talk at you about the same thing for SO LONG) I am drawing a blank.
And, you know what, I realize that is absolutely 110% terrible. I mean, TWO WEEKS? Don’t get me wrong, it’s not that He hasn’t been speaking to me, it’s just been the same old thing “you are more than calories etc.”
Like I said, we talked about that. A LOT.
Now, the fact that I have nothing to write about, sort of made me realize that I really do have something to write about.
My weak faith.
What I have to come to realize is that I have the MIND to have a SUPER STRONG faith and relationship with God. I am really TRYING. I listen to sermons every day, and try to read the Bible as well. Mr. FFF and I have started trying to remember scripture to repeat to ourselves whenever we both start struggling with our own personal “stuff.”
But, listening to eleventy billion sermons and knowing the Bible with my eyeballs closed, isn’t going to strengthen my faith, or my relationship, if I don’t truly have the HEART behind it.
The mind/desire to constantly walk with God can only go so far. And that is what I am struggling with: how to get the two to meld and become one.
One of the things that I picked up from a sermon that I listened to this week was that “to actually make a change, people need to see beauty in it, and God is beautiful.”
But, I realized that I haven’t really ACCEPTED the beauty yet. I know it in my head, but it’s not deep-rooted in my heart.
And, I want it to be. I want it to be VERY BADLY.
So, I want you advice. Do you guys struggle with this? And what have you found has helped you grow from just MIND faith, to MIND AND HEART kind of faith? I would REALLY love to hear.
Again, I hope you don’t judge me, or think I am fake for these struggles. But, I have always wanted FFF to be real and, well, this is real people.
Can’t wait to hear your thoughts! xoxo